hello! i just stuck in front my notebook have been a while, why? idk! my my heart feel so mess. what happen and the problem on me? i really don't know. i really thought i can start from the day no more EMO and no more over thinking or else, but today everything going mess! shit.. !@#$%^&*()_+ i called HIM at around 12++ he didn't pick up okay! he's busyin maybe, i wait and wait and wait......... 4++ no call back no message. my mood going so TMD down i really mess myself and i don't know how long i can wait still, so i decided to call him again, still no pick up. why? busying until now isn't it? (keep wondering) okay, finally he called back me, and i ask ARE YOU BUSYING? he said YES. okay, i ask him take your time to busy first. and i thought that he will call me back after he done everything. but i wait until now again no call back no message i have received. maybe he really busying? HAHAHAHHAHA.. idk! really idk! i saw his staff online-ing. ya, i know it's just a very small problem. but why i so care? HAHHAHAHA.. i know i really mess my own life. LIFELESS! HOPELESS! actually i'm still waiting, wondering will he call me later or finish work? hmmm.. i hope everything is fine. i hope ... and i hope...